Fallen like a star , frozen like a stone , laughing as if the world's gonna end.

2005-12-17T03:16:00.000+08:00

Sigh. Fronnie's going back to philliphines in around 2 -3 hours time. I will definately miss her.
Shes the longest domestic helper and she knows me the best. Knows what to pack for me when i go breaking knows what to pack for me when i go for my judo trainings in the past.
Life at home was never boring with her around.
Well fronnie i know you cant read this but just wanna say that we all miss you =)
Do take care and have a safe flight. Bon Voyage. =)

2005-12-15T02:22:00.000+08:00

Argh. Life is so boring. Everything is so screwed up. Family problems , school fees problems. Knn.
My school fees are like 6000 plus for 2 years? Wtf. I havent been breaking due to my injury.
I keep pulling my thigh muscle which hurts like fuck.Seriously what the fuck is happening to me. Im getting so pissed with nearly everything. And christmas is coming. Fuck. I hate christmas. Its fucking boring. Shops closes early.Nothing to do. No work. Just quit my fucking job at TRU.
Fucking manager. Racist mother fucking cheebye knn hongkan dog. Malay dog.
Argh , now even Jessica has found a job. Im gonna be so bored.
Tosh nick and dehui are going to Korea for a breaking trip. Cheebye. They also not celebrating christmas.
Only dominic chiro and clarence will be in Singapore. Well hope christmas i can spend some time together with everyone else.

I miss my lil bebe so much. Sigh. Wanna hug you so badly sweethearty!

2005-11-25T01:40:00.000+08:00

argh fuck la. now adays always damn tired. Because of work. fucked up la. mus wake up so early. then work like 8 hours. sometimes even 12 - 14 hours also can. cb. i wanna change job. i cannot stand the manager and all. fucked up malay. cheebye knn hongkan.
now so many things happened. The first bboy jam also coming. 4 december at substation.
Now because of work , i dont have enough time to train and practice.
Dome , nick and tosh keep blaming me. Dehui keep kaopei-ing. cheebye. i so busy where got time to break. at least fucking understand me la. cb.
Now because of something wrong i posted on the azn forum. Dome and nick are telling me off. fuck lor. Is like AS IF you guys got nothing against CDS. We all know it. I know it and you know it.
We fucking dont like CDS. Samad especially. now you guys are telling me off? Scared i will ruin the name Inertia? Like that i must why quit breaking. Because im having the intention to quit.
So you guys fucking give me an answer. You want me to leave? I also can. Like what happened last year in august. Conflict and all those fucked up shit. But the only thing is , i will stop breaking. Because im fucking sick and tired of the scene in singapore.

2005-11-16T03:11:00.000+08:00

I fucking hate everything. EVERYTHING.
I feel so lousy. Everybody said yesterday was the best session ever. Everyone improved tremondously except me. Im still fucking stucked and i regressed alot. After breaking went to play pool also i kept missing. What the fuck is wrong with me. I know i dont play such fucked up pool. I play with standard. I know myself. Im not hao lianing but it seems i cant even fucking get a ball into one fucking pocket.
Why am i so useless? I feel like committing suicide. I mean it.
I fucking dont wanna live in this fucking life God gave me. Its such a bore , its such a pain , its just an agony.
I wanna die.

2005-11-11T04:51:00.000+08:00

Talking to aaron now online. Good to catch up with ya man.
Well pierced my tongue on wednesday. The whole thing's swollen. argh.
haha well still have alot of stuffs i wanna do. Still undecided. Well.
Be back.

2005-11-07T04:24:00.000+08:00

Argh.im bored. fucking bored to death. Its holidays now and like fuck i needa work.
Gonna apply for job at Toys R Us tomorrow at the paragon or forum branch. yup.
Maybe breaking tmr with nick. Dont know yet.
Well hopefully can get the job. Gonna buy one vans shoe. I fucking like it alot. yeah
Gonna pierce my tongue again and have a tattoo next week.
Gonna tattoo 2 stars and 1 cross above my pubic region. Well hope to find a good lobang. haha.
Yup its gonna be me and sweetheart's 1st year anniversary on tuesday.
Love you so much baby.

2005-11-01T07:24:00.000+08:00

Just came home from clubbing last night with aaron , nick and chiro. Clubbed at Home Club. They took over mad monks. Saw alot of my friends there. Saw jules and clinton from st pats. And the RG girls like diane , sherry , Mabel and all. Blah blah. yeah.
And i went to dyed my hair. Brown la. Normal. yup.
Well gonna sleep now and go sweetheart house later. Ciao!

2005-10-29T15:01:00.000+08:00

argh. I wanna break more next week. I must perfect my spinning chair thing and try to link it. Well to the guys in inertia taking their O level next week , All the best. Dome , tosh you can do it.
I orderered a plain slip on from zon. Think im collecting it on sunday but first gotta transfer the cash to him.
Brian's returning me my 200 dollars after 2 years finally on tuesday. Hope he actually keeps his word though.
And with that 200 i dont know what should i do with it. Feel like buying new jeans or should i get new berms? And new t shirts? Ah.
Meeting tiangsian and kenneth later to go play arcade at amk then going for some bbq thing. Tiangsian said maybe 8 plus go town. Today's saturday and saturday nights are my favourites! hahaha.

I caught up with amanda last night. Things arent going well for her. But i hope you will know how to take care of yourself amanda.

2005-10-26T00:25:00.000+08:00

ahh been a long time since i blog. Today went breaking at woodlands. With nick tosh skillet and nicks friend. Well i think i improved today. Hopefully. haha. Then after breaking skillet and tosh went back. Then we went to play arcade. I keep owning in daytona. hahahaha Then we played pool after that. Then i owned both of them lol. Went to play dota also. 3 of us owned some bloody ah bengs who were so sia lan during the game.

Argh. I wanna get so many stuffs. Shit la. Wanna get new Mp3 cos i think mines damn old skool.
Wanna get surrender jeans because of the colour. Black denim. Wanna get new t shirts and most important of all. New shoes. Wanna try tiffanny dunk but that dunk so common. So maybe going for a bapesta. ya. Well tomorrow going back to skool and take report book. Then after that maybe playing arcade and lan with tiangsian kenneth mervin and the rest of the guys. Yup.
And gosh man , im moving house to bishan next year. Staying in flat. Never stayed in a flat before so ya. Think im looking forward to it. haha.

I miss sweetheart. Our 1 year anniversary is coming. Heh. Love you baby.

2005-10-04T16:33:00.000+08:00

Ahhh. Help me. I keep thinking about my past. I really missed them. As in my friends and all. The old inertia , miss the times where kenneth and all were still fooling around in shopping malls and all. Nick tosh and dome constantly doing stupid stuffs. I also missed the christmas play during december where me nick kenneth got together to perform with jasmine , bernice , karen , elaine , aaron and all. Sigh its really unforgettable.
I still remember hanging out with jenn during her birthday and watching dawn of the dead and scaring the shit out of her. hahaha , i also remembered the times where me and sharky would go esplanade together to break and at weekend i always chill at town.Man i have been thru alot of shit recently.
Im so confused now. I dont know what to do. Im really stucked between this two doors and dont know which to open. Well exams have started and im fucking up. English was okay , chinese was easy but too bad i cant read so it eventually will make me fail. I know the paper was easy but jus the reading part. Damn it. Fuck.
Going kenneth's house to mug until 11 plus then go home. Will be having this kind of time table till exams end which will be next friday. And then saturday and all im fucking gonna play. Really play like a fucking mad guy.
Im gonna pierce my right ear and tongue again. Took out my tongue stud because my dad killed me , right year closed becos of an infection. And im keeping long hair during the holidays. My hair is now halfway to long. Screw it!
I got so many things in mind. REALLY I STILL FUCKING MISS MY PAST.

And yes i almost forgot to add , I love you sweetheart!

2005-09-25T04:22:00.000+08:00

damn long didnt blog. Yesterday went for shawn birthday party. the 3e3 one i think.
then today went for kailshen birthday party. Party marathon.lol
anyway i miss sweetheart. hee.
Going to church tomorrow. Then tuition. ahhh exams coming in 2 - 3 weeks times.
Gotta mug. I started revision already. But not done. Well thats bout it.

2005-09-08T14:12:00.000+08:00

Its me and sweetheart's 10 month anniversary. Im really that happy that we've gone so far over this few months. Sweetheart, you're someone that i really need in my life. Because you make me feel special and loved by you. I've never regretted going together with you. I love you very much and i just hope you can read this now.
Sigh , not meeting sweetheart. I think she's busy thats why.But i really hope you can really come down and meet me. Sigh nvm. Well just enjoy sweetheart. love you.

2005-09-03T14:03:00.000+08:00

now ts and kenneth is at my house. we going swimming now. Then after that meeting the guys at woodlands to break and practice for show case for tomorrow Levis audition. lol. The advertisement one. hahahaha
went to break at yck with the guys yesterday. Everyone improved. Thats a good sign man.
Well sweetheart is now at hui hui house. I miss her so much.
Well thats bout it for today

2005-09-01T10:51:00.000+08:00

Eh kenneth in my house now and hes fucking irritating me. Hes the only bastard who woke me up after so long. CHEEBYE.
Fuck you kenneth __
hahahahaha
Bought a testament tee yesterday from skool. 35 bucks only. And the design's dope.

I have a lot of things in my mind to buy. Shit la.

Headporter Shati Tote Bag.
LV colourful phone strap.
Bapestas.
Ralf Lauren Jacket , Or Bathing Ape camo jacket. ( gonna cost a bomb )
Surrender or Nbhd Jeans.
Maybe new levis. Levis to cheap already la.lol
DRUMS. ( kenneth's bugging me to get one )
Gucci Fisherman hat.
Maybe an LV wallet.
And new tee shirts.
Thats all.

And i wanna get these by floorskills volume 4 , 2006.

Chair to shoulder.
Air Chair
Headdrill 1 and half rounds.
One hand thread air freeze.
More complicating and cleaner footworks.
Faster and sharper basics

2005-07-27T23:39:00.000+08:00

Now im not sick already. Was sick for 2 days. Tuesday and Wednesday. Then today didnt even go for judo. Well when i was sick yesterday, sweetheart came my house and i didnt even ask her to come it was a surprise.She appeared in my room then she said "tada"! Hee , ur so sweet baby! She came right after her skool remedial which ended at 5.45 around there.I appreciate it very much k sweetheart? hee.

Is not that i dun wanna tell u my problem. I got no problem to tell.
And honestly, after a few months being with you. I realised i dont like you going out with ur guy classmates , even though still got girls i still dont like it.
They are ur frens for 5 years. No doubt u know them better. But i tell u this , it doesnt makes any difference.Becos i know u will say , they have been my friends for 5 years. I wont like them or something.
Is not about the liking. Is how i feel.
well not important.

2005-06-28T00:27:00.000+08:00

long time since i last blogged. today i went dinner with sweetheart's parents and their friends.
there was like 7 of us. we had indoor steamboat at tanglin shopping centre. Its located at orchard , near the forum shopping centre.We ate until damn full. Then jess's dad treated us to haagen diaz ice cream. All of us. haha.
Damn good la. lol. after that they took a cab home and i took mrt home.
I miss my sweethearty so muchie! hee. cant wait for our 8 month anniversary in 10 more days!
Sweetheart i love you! hee.
Muacks!

Sigh , so bored tomorrow still have skool. fuck.
Farharn from radikal force is gonna break with us with a US bboy at my condo function room. Hope it would be a dope one to learn some new shits.

Okay gtg. cya

2005-05-29T18:27:00.000+08:00

my birthday is in 2 more days. may 31.heh heh.

2005-05-23T13:39:00.000+08:00

today's toshie moshie birthday! happy birthday u kid! oops , no more kid. hahaha 16 years old. LOL.
BIG LAH! anyways , im going out with my crew today to celebrate tosh's birthday.
And he just made the inertia crew video. The song is dope man. HAHA.

i miss my stupid piggy so much!

2005-05-14T10:50:00.000+08:00

Yesterday the audition was quite abit hard to believe. Becos the agency can like help us get performances and put us in the media and all. And somemore minimum for one group is 450. Somemore their agency so small. Its quite hard to believe. Well nvm. If its not a scam hopefully wad we do will be dope.
After having the audtion at joo chiat , we all went esplanade. I trained footwork.hahaha. Long time didnt train footwork already. Kinda like pia basics. then yesterday my handstand to elbow to shoulder also cant do. fuck , its not constant. Gotta seriously work on it. And im working on air chairs , gonna train at home.
I just saw gonza friendsters and he took pictures with physics! WTF , I WANNA MEET PHYSICS! hes so fucking dope!
Later im going for my church soccer match.Dont know which region we playing with. Then meeting jess later. Well i will blog another day if i feel like. ha.

2005-05-13T12:39:00.000+08:00

woohoo! today is the last day of exams. Today was chemistry. Totally sucked balls. Anyways,
meeting up with my crew later except dehui becos he has dance night , we are going for some audition that MAY lead us to fame. Becos we might be introduced to mediacorp and all.Even if we dont. My dad can , my dad has mediacorps contacts and can help the crew get performances and he told me during national day , me and inertia might have a performance in brunei. Performing for the government or something representing Singapore. Woohoo! that sounds fun. Anyways , new blog skin is uploaded , thanks to swee ying. Enjoy =)
Cant wait to meet up with my crew mates man. Really missed breaking with them and crapping.After the audition we are heading to esplanade. Hopefully we see some noobs there =x hahahahaha.

2005-05-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

Sweetheart. i hope u would be reading this.Im sorry for the times i made u feel like we arent close like last time.Its just that alot of things had happened and u should know it and i just dont know how to express it to you. Just hope u can forgive me.Sigh. I love u very much.

2005-05-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

Today's me and Jessica 6 month anniversary together.Time passes really fast. It feels like we've been together for like years. But its only half a year. Today i went to my mum's church. My old church. Its dead boring. I find theres no point in the church. They dont have proper sermon. No alter call , dont take the holy communium seriously.And other stuffs. But thank God im in Evangel Family Church. Everything's the opposite. And much more fun. And after church i went to sweetheart's house to study. Studied maths. Tomorrow is paper 1 and i dont feel so ready. damn. Just hope God can give me the wisdom and knowledge to answer the questions. Well sweetheart also cooked for me noodles. Hee so sweet of her.I love u so much sweethearty!
Guess thats bout it for today. Gonna call her now then turn it. Nights everyone!

2005-03-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

People who play the most important role in my life.

Jessica - My dearest girlfriend.I promise to marry you and i will.We will keep our love going on until we die.

Aaron - Bro, you're the closest friend i ever had.Sharing troubles with and joking.Sorry for not sharing my time with you in the past.But i promise u when u come back from Austrailia, we will have those cycling trips with boon kiat and all =)

Dome - Dommie! You got one of the nicest styles in Inertia.Really love the times we always hang out with the crew and have fun and stupid things.I dont know what to say bout u reading bout satanism but always remember that Jesus is the true living God that loves us.Us ,the children of God.Hope u know =)

Tosh - One of the nicest nicest kua zang styles i ever knew.Again, though he doesnt have dope moves but all i know he have dope footwork and toprock to roast those dope moves and powermoves out there =x

Nick - Qilin ah! Dont always say you lousy hor.You are one of singapore's best ground / wicked mover.Maybe you're the best?hahaha.But dont stop moving, keep up the good work and lets be the top CHINESE crew in singapore next year!

Chiro - My closest crew mate! Always talk to me bout street wear stuffs.Talking bout dope tees, dope kicks and all.HAHA.but in the end i also no money to afford most of the stuffs i dream about.LOL.U working leh, so good.Can afford! lol.Dont stop improving man though u dont have much time to break due to work.

Dehui - Dehui! We started breaking at the same time but its amazing how u improve much faster then me! Still the dope strength moves and now some dopey footwork coming up eh.Keep up the good work man!

Siak - Siak, welcome to the crew, Inertia. Sessions are never boring with you man. Constantly talking cock and joking around.Well i really love ur company!

2005-03-19T13:28:00.000+08:00

i jus realised my breaking regressed alot. damn it. My basics are fading. I need to train more of them. Although the word basics sounds noob , but real basics in breaking is not noob.
I need to train harder, attend more sessions with my crew and strive more. So that next year FLoorskillz, it will be Inertia turn to shine.

Ahhh, i miss my stupid piggy so much! Cant wait to see her later!
Love u so muchie sweethearty!

2005-03-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

i have not been blogging for quite some time. now is the march holidays and its damn sian.
today jess came my hse and we did practically nothing, we were jus slacking and watching tv.
Town is so sian, then nothing to do. Skip judo training today also.Very tired.
Now is so damn sian! ah!

2005-03-10T14:08:00.000+08:00

i feel so lonely. like as if u had left me.
Im losing hope in this relationship. Is like i kept dreaming that you left me.
And i know u will one day.
So hopeless.You never assured me.

2005-02-06T22:38:00.000+08:00

jus came back from fetching jess sweetheart home.today after church, went to meet my jess to shop for the air max i long wanted. wilson also came, he intro me to this new shop called surrender, dope street wear shop.im gonna shop there man. I ordered this dusty cap from skool, gonna collect it next week when i get my chinese new year money. I went sneak attack at far east to get the air max land navigator. But wtf? the nike tick is in blue instead of black. And i just realised it jus only.Damn fucking pissed lor.Wilson is saving up for the porter bag which is 350 bucks.I dont really like paying so much for a bag but i dont mind paying alot for a t shirt and kicks.wahahaha.
I miss my sweetheart so much.Every moments we spend together, is simply not enough.I need so much of you.You're like a drug and im addicted to you.I need you everyday.love u so much sweetheart!

2005-02-01T22:46:00.000+08:00

today is the Inertia's one year anniversary! went out with the whole crew consisting of me dome nick tosh dehui and chiro. but chiro went to work as he hanged out with us for awhile at j8. we went breadtalk and bought a cake and celebrated our 1st year anniversary.Before we bought the cake, we were sitting down, me tosh nick and dehui were practically sitting down and laughing at ALL the RI NERDS. Damn kuazhang lor.they really damn nerd.Bag damn big and high, pants damn high, socks also high. Basket. Fortunately Dehui was not like that or else we sure suan him like siao.hahahaha
Sigh, today my heart hurts alot. i mean not emotionally but physically. I dont know why, everytime i walk my heart around that area hurts so badly.Sigh , jess stomach also hurts.Well i will pray for ya alrights sweetheart? I miss u so much! cant wait to see u tmr. Wont be going for judo becos of my head injury.
Gonna get a few more t shirts during chinese new year and maybe a new cap.getting a new diamond stud too. guess thats bout it.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY INERTIA!

2005-01-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

jus came back not along from town with jess sweetheart.
after church went to meet her, then we went far east to shop for some t shirts.
i went ambush to check out the t shirts but there werent any nice designs, went to sidewalk 10 also no designs.So went to x-large and got a t shirt, and also got a t shirt from skool.the skool t shirt not so nice cos its kinda small from the usual t shirts i have. But it cost 75 bucks.The t shirt from x-large cost 42 bucks after discount from 54 bucks i think.lol.jess didnt bought anything.
So after we shop we went to watch movie at cine.watched feng shui.
man the show is fucking scary.damn fucking scary lor.
Tmr still got skool man.damn sian.then still have judo. Hope tomorrow will be a better day.

2005-01-27T23:18:00.000+08:00

yesterday had a maths test.so damn bloody easy man.today learned new topic.
Pythagora's Theorem.Damn bloody easy man. But i think the future chapters will be harder.Sigh, gotta work hard. Im wanting to go La Salle Arts Skool after my N levels next year.But i dont even have my art background.Im in principles Of Accounts.So Jess Sweetheart is gonna guide me on my art and help me draw better so i can prepare my port folio so can enter La Salle.
Damn man, think about it, its like so stressed.
Tomorrow is the Nanyang Poly Competition.Dome, Tosh , Nick , Me , Dehui and Dinesh ( Elite Team ) are representing Inertia.There will be 8 teams.
Shit man, gonna be quite a hard time.
The 8 teams are Z stylus ( 2 Teams Representing ) , Ftc , Civic Dome Squad , Styles From Beyond , Uncanny Originz , Inertia and Hell Boys.
Civic Dome Squad is not a threat, but Hell Boys , Ftc , Styles From Beyond , Uncanny Originz and Z Stylus are the bigger threats.
We lost to Ftc , Uncanny Originz and Hell Boys before.
But whatever it is we are gonna give our best shot.
Inertia! We will make it!

2005-01-23T23:32:00.000+08:00

had a battle with elite team yesterday.man the battle was dope.
i said they won. they had dope crew routines.props.
dehui could do alot of one handed eclipse not the eggplant one but the scissors kick.damn bloody zai lor. around 10.man.everyone's improving.
i think i did pretty well during the battle. my routines didnt screwed up. especially my first routine, i tot i was going to screwed up, but my headstand to elbow freeze held.ha.
well watched electra with sweetheart jess 2 days ago. kinda shit show though.
but not so bad, dun know why she finds it nice.wahahahaha.
im now saving up to get the nike air trainer from sole central.
i hope when i get the cash they dont run out of stock.
i asked auntie sharon to help me ask her friends who works in Nike, to help me get the aloha nike dunk and air max 90 land navigation for a cheaper price, but she said maybe cant becos her friend's friend who handles all those is quite a bitchy person but i jus hope she wont be so bitchy not to get the shoe for me.
man, i really want those 2 pairs of shoes.
jus now sweetheart jess came my hse then we watched home alone.hahahaha
damn bloody funny lor.man its an old show but i really love it.
Now the kid is like a grown up and in real life his was married and divorced.
man hes really THAT big now.haha
anyways, damn sian, dunno if got homework anot.feeling the monday blues.
Tomorrow got judo.Shit, Black belt master say he wanna try my limits, meaning really push me until i cant take it.sigh, hope i can make it tomorrow and show that i can be a real fighter.

2005-01-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

today went for judo.damn tiring lor. dun even feel like going. damn tired when i got home.i think i wanna change cca already.
nick said the nanyang poly competition changed to 6 v 6.
then we signing as Inertia. the crew name.
tosh dome nick me dehui and pak will be joining.
hope definitions wont be there becos they are from nanyang poly and the judges are the crowd.and the crowd are nanyang poly students, i bet if definitions take part in it, sure chao sian.
Definitions obviously will be rocking the floor, but they're dope. what to do. ftc also will be joining. so i guess will be a tough fight.
if we get pass the 1st round we all happy liao. haha.

im talking to my sweetheart now on the phone. miss her so badly.
tomorrow will be meeting her.well thats bout it.

2005-01-16T23:57:00.000+08:00

now im on the phone with her. miss her so much.
she came my house in the afternoon then we both went jogging at around 5.20 like that.we jog to bishan park then started walking , was so tired.haha.
then we went to eat dinner at my hse.and watch channel 8.
some stephen chow show.damn funny lor.wahahah
then at around 10 i fetched her to lavender.then i reached home around 11.30.damn, tomorrow got judo , mus go, cant see her.miss her so much.

I feel so miserable , so hurt, everytime i think about that.
it really hurts so much.i cant bear to lose you , it may not be God's will or it may be. but i jus wanna let you know that i cherish you alot and very dearly.sigh

2005-01-13T15:54:00.000+08:00

jess is now at my hse sleeping soundly behind me.she looks so adorable when she sleeps.I was telling her when she was sleeping , i love you.
she asked me what i said but i didnt wanna say it.hope she reads my blog then she'll know wad i said.
Shes happily hugging my bolster.man. my bolster is one of the best thing in my life.lol.
I feel like hugging her right now but i dont wanna disturb her becos shes in her beauty sleep.Gonna cut my hair later on. my back hair is damn bloody ugly.Gonna make it more nicer.
Thats bout it.

To KARLING : you think very fun to give my blog to people is it?
i also never give my blog to you.Say until so much , its my privacy stuff and wad makes u think i allow you to see? You can be reading my blog now jus becos i disabled the password shit.
Damn kay poh lor.People life also wanna go see.Also never give you my blog address.Kay poh my life so much for wad , you also not even related to me.You're just a classmate , and you better stop giving my blog address to other people lor. Kay Poh Kia.

2005-01-13T08:47:00.000+08:00

in my skool computer now having chemistry.miss her so much. thats all.blog more later on

2005-01-11T21:05:00.000+08:00

went out with my jess today to town to study. did english.
man the standard of english is damn hard lor.haha. my sweet jess helped me with some of it.heh.after that we went to walk around and window shopped.Im gonna get a brown levi's jeans for breaking and a brown beanie with a cap from topman.i dunno wad the hell is that. saving up for new clothing and shoes.thinking of getting a new digicam with 5 or 7 mega pixels but thats out of the question.

Everyday im loving her so much , im beginning to feel jealous whenever she mention some guy names or whatsoever.i dun know why im feeling like this. Its only 2 months and im like that? I guess it means she truly means alot to me and i love her so so much.well nvm , its not important , let her talk bout guys infront of me. i will pretend that im alrite.

I jus talked to don jus now on msn , he said there was no competition on the 28 of jan in his skool, well not sure bout it.gonna ask nick to check and confirm it again.

Skool's really sucked up.Fucked up principal , new rules and all
Screw that indian bastard.Lotsa homework , hope i can cope.
Should be easy.

2005-01-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

had a call from nick jus now. telling me bout a competition 3 on 3 on 28 jan at nanyang poly. he sign up with tosh and dome.then he ask me
sign up with dehui and clarence.dunno whether they want anot.
wa lau damn sian lor , i wanna join.
Think gonna ask nick help me dehui and clarence sign up.
gonna make my routines clean man.

Jess came my house today ,really love her so much.
felt the pain in my heart when i cried for her. It shows how important you are to me sweetheart.You're all i can ever asked for.
I love you loads.

2005-01-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

jus came back from an outing with jess.today its our 2nd anniversary
month ONLY. still have a long way to go. but , i still love u jess!
today had a friendly battle with ftc.Inertia had me , dome , tosh , nick ,
jia qi and dehui.ftc had kelvin , norbin , jarel , hasrul and victor.
they won la, expected. we so lousy.but today can tell alot of people screwed up in their routines and all.
well injured the back of my head , damn pain.
did an elbow tip and landed on my head.fuck.hurts damn bloody badly man.
after the battle went to watch seed of chucky with jess.
man , damn bloody violent.but also damn funny.
well guess thats bout it.

2005-01-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

I feel pieces of me spliting up.Its as if im an invisible person in front of your eyes.My world of my own is suffering.I'm feeling so useless.
Im your burden , your obstacle , your suffering.
Because of me , u cant get most of the things you want.
I'm the reason why you cant further your studies.
Fallen like a star , dreaming the impossible , laughing like the world of my own is tearing apart.
And i cant do anything.

2005-01-02T01:10:00.000+08:00

hey guys. its been a real long time since i updated.ha.anyways, got a new
blog skin.ha. as u can see. thanks to jeanne. ha.thanks yeah.
anyways, i spent christmas with jess and spent new year.
i had a dinner and dance that ended at 1 plus. and during that we count
down.after that we went nick's condo to ton.
basket. damn funny lor. jia qi, dome, tosh , nick , dehui were there.
then tosh brought his gf.and his gf friends came. and when they came, i was in my spongebob boxers. damn cute lor, thats wad dome said.
wahahaha.then we slept for only 2 hours.
me and jessica slept on the only bed in the house.the rest were sleeping
on the sofa.wahahaha.
damn pathetic lor. only 2 hours of sleep.then next morning we all went
hougang mall to eat macs for breakfast.
then after that ,everyone was dreading to go home.was damn real tired.
could see dehui desperateness to go home. lol.
then i sent jessica until raffles then i went home.really couldnt take it.
then after that slept from 11 to 5 pm.
damn bored. so i called wei quan, went to his house to play tennis.
then we went amk central to eat kfc.then he went my house for awhile .
installed counter strike 2d. quite fun.well im on the phone with jess now.
thats for today and yesterday.

2004-12-24T11:40:00.000+08:00

man. i have not been blogging for ages. haha. today is christmas eve.
I jus came home 2 hours ago from jessica hse. I went to stayed over last
nite.she got like 4 houses? and we went to stay at her another condo where none of her family members were staying there.i went to meet her after ben's bbq. Supposed to meet my mum but suddenly my mum becos she wanna bring me go eat.but she couldnt make it so i went to meet jessica instead. Today im gonna get a new phone. either 6670 or 6260.
man, i have been waiting so long for a new phone.wahahaha.
then after that im gonna meet jess in town later.we're gonna buy each other a christmas present.lol.
then at night im staying over her friend's house together with her.
well i will update another time. cya guys.

2004-12-07T23:39:00.008+08:00

man, im so tired. today went breaking with chiro to esplanade.
then together with weeter , charles and larry.man, have not been seeing weeter for a real long time.Now hes a damn zai flipper. can flip here and there. today breaking was quite discouraging. Lost quite alot of stuffs.
i mean alot man. my links are not constant.And my air freezes are totally, and i mean TOTALLY like shit now.not like in the past.
then after breaking i went with chiro to eat at long john's.
Talked alot becos its been a real long time since we hanged out and talked bout life and breaking.Then we took a train to yishun, and he went home then i took a bus home. Now my jess's at her skool prom.
Cant message her.Its gonna be our 1 month anniversary soon.
The 8Th.
Aaron's coming back on the 9. man.
gonna have some fun when he's back.
Guess thats bout it.

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2004-12-06T01:01:00.000+08:00

man, i have not been updating for nearly 1 month. so many things happened man.hahaha.now is like 1 am and im blogging.lol.
jus now came back from an outing with my gurlfriend,jessica.
went to watch Saw.A nice movie.The murderer is a very smart one.Actually he cant really be labelled as a murderer becos he never touched his victims at all.He made his victims kill themselves.The ending was quite shocking.aiya, mus watch then can understand.hahaha.
will be going sentosa with church friends later in the morning.
Meeting ben and friends at harbour front at 9.Mum gonna drive me to dhoby ghaut mrt first.
anyways,gonna sleep now.damn exhausted. Cya.

2004-11-12T01:28:00.000+08:00

went breaking with melvin and justin at orchard mrt.definitions were there also breaking.tomorrow my dad's gonna pay me and cheryl 100 bucks 1st for our salary.becos we started work already.then gonna have my name card also.today i think i improved. maybe i did? maybe i didnt.
my headstand to air freeze quite constant already.but the shape is not there.sigh. gotta work on it.its just my shoulder to headstand is not constant.sometimes cant even do.well got to make friends with justin and talked about lotsa stuffs like breaking and crews.well im gonna break more often now.well thats about it.

2004-11-07T20:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday was damn tiring.injured my arm. played rounders for church activity yesterday.
lost one game and drew one game.hell. then it ended around 6 plus.
went to meet don at around 8 pm for breaking at orchard mrt.then melvin came at around 10.15 pm.
then marcus came also. wah, they all damn bloody dope man. haha. melvin's damn funny.
his routines all wake up routines. cant believe he manage to bite the whole set. respect man even though its a bite.
well i think biting is not so bad la. when i was in inertia everything single thing to them was bite. total childishness.
i showed melvin one of my routines yesterday and he said that routine was fine and it wasnt a bite.and guess what,
when i did that routine in front of inertia , all say bite sign. stupid.especially kenneth.keep saying bite. maybe he's
living in denial.he havent seen much of the bboying world yet.so thats why he doesnt know.saying wad the one hand
in the middle is considered a bite becos wake up uses it.stupid, even melvin all those say not bite.total dumbness.
then we all break until around 12 .30 am , then we went to cineleisure to meet don's gurlfriend and kelvin from
definitions. kelvin , don and his gurlfriend all gonna watch movie, so me and melvin went downstairs long johns to
slack.Then we saw alvin from retribution crew.Kelvin said retribution crew disbanded already.
So me and melvin were talking about breaking stuffs.then my mum came to orchard and fetched me home.
well thats for yesterday.dont feel like blogging about today.damn tired.suppose to go orchard mrt now and meet
melvin and larry for session.but im also injured man.well thats it.

well amanda , since u dont wanna be frens, well fine then , then lets pretend that i dont know you in the first place
and you dont know me and also pretend that none of this happened.

2004-11-05T01:03:00.000+08:00

went breaking just now with don at orchard mrt.
saw retribution members. don melvin marcus and justin no more in
retribution.they have their own crew called The Newest.Kinda dope.lol.
retribution they all were breaking at one corner. then me and don
breaking another corner.
Don said i improved.Damn happy man. finally i got my basics done.
my shoulder transit to headstand.im still trying headstand to airfreeze.
In singapore not alot of bboys know that basics are important.
well its just is.then after that went home.

I just wanna apologise to one person.Amanda li.
we cant be together, so why not be frens?
but when i started liking you, i was sincere of being with you, i was
sincere of caring for you.i liked u alot.
but i thought about it.we still dun fit. im breaker boy, ur punk rock gurl.
we dun fit.theres nothing we can get along with yea. u even rejected me
agreeing that we dun fit.
well i just hope we still can be frens.i know saying this will not change
one bit. im sorry.

2004-11-03T01:16:00.000+08:00

jus came back from breaking with don.damn tired. met him at orchard mrt first then we went lido to have dinner.after that went raffles to break but raffles mrt all renovating.so we went tanjong pagar. lol my mum's work place.haha.we break until 11 plus then went home. so freaking
tired man.cant wait for my new hand phone.
tomorrow going for training day with cheryl.working with my dad.
cheryl also.well gonna sleep now la.ciaoz.

2004-10-31T10:05:00.000+08:00

hey.just came back not long ago.i didnt go home.lol.
in the afternoon , went out with don and melvin.the old retribution
members.went far east to walk around and eat.then we talked alot.
they are damn bloody funny especially don.hahahaha.
then walked to wisma to go see gurls? not for me , but for them.hahaha.
then we went cine to walk around.Then it was damn bloody boring so we
went esplanade to break.Break until 8 plus then we went suntec to eat.
We were mostly talking about breaking stuffs and some poly thingy.lol.
then after suntec we went dhoby ghaut to break.break for awhile then
went off to cine.by the time it was 10 plus.Then melvin's friend came
along.Her name is rachel.Im the youngest man among the 4.lol.
Don is 20 melvin is 23 and rachel is 20. wth.hahahaha.and she tot i was
18. wow? i look so old? hahahaha.
we wanted to catch a mid night show at cine.horror or something.
But didnt want.Rachel requested to watch at yishun becos its near her
house and after the movie can go her house.
We reached yishun , but she didnt watch with us.After the movie then
we called her.So we watched shark tales.haha. damn bloody funny.
But i slept during the middle part.Wasted la.
Then after the movie was around 2pm , then we went to the petrol kiosk
near to her house.waited for her.Then took some pictures.lol.
then she came.then we went to 7 11 to buy cup noodles.then went up to
her house to eat.Then melvin brought some dance cd and then we all
watched it.Me and don were dead bored.Becos the dance damn boring.
then after awhile i slept.then slept until the next morning.I went off
first.Rachel opened the door for me, and she told me im the earliest to
sleep and earliest to wake up.lol.
Then don and melvin were still sleeping.So i went off to the bus stop.
Then took a bus home.
Now gonna prepare to go church. Gtg. Ciaoz.

2004-10-30T01:29:00.000+08:00

IM BACK! back from camp! wahahahaha.
the camp kinda sucked.Was being pumped alot.lol.
Morning physical training sucked too. But i learned alot of things during
the camp.Me and Boon Kiat learned how to belayed someone when they
are in the high ropes .Eg like rock climbing and all.
But me and boon kiat were not in the same group.But i got to make new
friends.And had team work.For my group, i dare to say we were the best.
Our cheer , our skit , our performance.But too bad we didnt win the best
group.Sigh.But nvm.
haha our 2 cheers are kinda funny.But i will type it down.My group name
is Falcon.lol

1st cheer :

Falcons unite we show our might ( echo )
We show them how we falcons fight ( echo )
We fly over the sky with our heads held high ( echo )
Falcon falcon is our cry ( echo )
We will we will peck you ( Ah )
Peck you ( Ah )

2nd Cheer :

Dont mess with the best becos the best dont mess
Dont fool with the cool becos the cool dont fool

Dont mess ( clap clap )
Dont fool ( clap clap )

We are the best but you are the fool!

Is that batman ? ( NO )
Is that superman ? ( NO )
Is that spiderman ? ( NO )

Then who is that ?!

It is FALCON MAN!

wahahahaha.thats our group cheer.kinda funny though.lol
Our skit , i did some breaking.hahaha.had some cheered from other
groups.lol.
Anyways i miss everyone.Then today was the day we went home.
Damn me donovan , benjamin and tommy went thompson plaza to
eat.Finally my skool outside have a 7 11.wahahahahaha.
so convinient.lol.
Well was suppose to break with my crew today.But i overslept.Becos i
was damn tired.I only slept for 3 or 4 hours during the camp.
And everyday was full of activities.My group came in 1st for the
orientering.Power!
wahahahaha, im so proud of this group of mine.Wish i can have another
camp with the same group.
Well i guess thats bout it.Gtg now.
Ciaoz!

2004-10-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

hey did not blog for a few days.damn lazy.haha.
well today went town with ben.kinda pissed him off earlier on.sorry man!
but everything's fine i hope.met him at orchard mrt.we went taka to get
something to eat then went paragon.
Then at paragon, guess who i saw? i saw silly manda. i was so SHY , that i walked from her.but she spotted me.Then she was like telling siling,
hey thats the silly boy.then benedict saw and told me shes calling me ,
then i had no choice but to turn back and say hello in a surprised manner.
Then i waved at her.My day got brightened up becos i saw her.its been quite
a while since we last met.Yeah , i missed her.
Then after me and ben toured around orchard then went back around 5 plus.
Was so damn tired. yeah on the phone with aaron now , haha he got a penknife.
to protect from BAD PEOPLE in austrialia!
Tomorrow im going for my skool camp.Wont be back until friday.
Cant msg her and cant chat with her. =(
Well i dont know how shes feeling towards me, but this is how i feel towards her.I will miss her badly.yups.
okay i think i better go sleep now.nitey!

2004-10-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today was a GREAT day.yeah real GREAT. Found some stupid jobs. yeah.
real stupid. Me wilmer cheryl and nicholas found some dumb job at an INDIAN PUB! whahahah.at lucky plaza. they will call us if they need us.
Me and nicholas signed up for out door surveyor.
Wilmer and cheryl might get the job for telemarketor and data admin.
Was talking to weijun, jenn's ex bf. he is working at levis jeans store.
Then will get a 20 percent discount becos he works.so asking him to help me
buy.lol.And , next year after his O's gonna ask him to help pull me in the levi's
job.lol.

I miss someone.I cant talk to her anymore.Becos im inferior to do so.
I'm a younger person.She will never fall in love with someone like me.
But i'll be here for her when she needs someone.I miss you.

Amanda.

2004-10-18T14:06:00.000+08:00

hey.did not blog yesterday.ha
well yesterday after church, went with benedict to town again to watch movie.
watched resident evil 2.omg , can u believe it? the person didnt asked for our ic.
benedict is 18 so obviously he looked mature so she didnt asked him.
But im only 15 and she didnt asked me too? wahahahaha.didnt know i look
mature man.AHEM! hahahaha.
the movie was at 3.15.we bought the tickets at 2.30.I was also messaging
amanda then.So the movie was starting about 45 mins , so me and ben went
to far east and walk around.We were talking about so many shops were turning
into gay clothing shops.For those ah bengs and ah lians for example.lol.
Then at 3pm we went back to lido.The movie was damn nice.
The fighting part especially.hahaha. now i know why its nc16.Becos of the
nudity and some violence.lol.
There was this hot gurl playing the police and with alice fighting.Damn
shes fucking hot.I think shes jennifer love hewitt.Looks like her.
Man , damn shes really fucking hot.lol.
After the movie me and ben walked around town.Went taka to eat ice cream
and slack.Then afterwards he went home.
I went to meet my mum at peninsular plaza becos of her friend's company
dinner.Its damn boring man.I slept though.hahahaha.
After that went home.lol.
Well for today , later im going wei quan house play tennis.Or maybe he
coming my house to play tennis.hmmm , damn bored now.
Wanna improve more on my breaking.Gregg thought of going underground.
Aloysius too.Well okay.thats it.

2004-10-16T13:31:00.000+08:00

forgot to blog yesterday man.Damn tired when i came home.so didnt feel like
blogging.lol.
anyways, about yesterday, weiquan accompanied me to go cut my hair.lol.
i dun think its that nice la.after that we go his house go play tennis.
its really fun if u really know how to play it.lol.the sun was damn hot man.
i think i got tanned.wahahahahha.then after that, he came my house to play
billiard.I kept winning him 3 times in a row.its damn hilarious.
He say the day before he keep training, he can win his friend.then my house
he lost.wahahahahaha.Then after play billard he went off becos he needed to
go his grandmother house.
Then i went to meet gregg and aloysius at yio chu kang mrt.Becos we going
breaking at esplanade.
Then we took the train halfway, we stopped at orchard mrt.Was waiting
for gregg's god sis natalie.Shes a gymnast.And shes damn flexible.lol.
So we went esplanade.When i reached esplanade, oh man , i saw inertia.
Really pissed me off.Jia qi was there too.
I hate EVERYONE in inertia. i repeat i hate EVERYONE in inertia.
So i dont give a bloody damn about them anymore.
I wanna battle pak. He daoed me at bishan 2 days ago.
then at esplanade he said hi to me , i daoed him back
Mother fucker. so Kenneth arranged a battle between 2 v 2.
Clarence also wanna battle me.Battle lor.Think he is so zai?
Ha , have a 2 on 2 lor.
I dont know when the battle will be. But it will be clarence and pak battling
me and gregg.After that i COMPLETELY wont give a shit about inertia.
Ha, they even asked gregg wanna merge crew.
Then during dinner time , gregg aloysius natalie and me were talking
about the merging.I obviously said no to it.
Then gregg said , whats the reason we merge for what.
Gregg is such a dope powermove.If we merge , Inertia has something to gain.
And euthanasia has nothing to gain.SO INERTIA , WE AINT MERGING.
u wanna play games? wanna have a dope powermover in ur crew?
u can dream on.wahahahaha.
Natalie and Aloysius also agreed on not merging.
Then while breaking , i was asking natalie if she could backflip.
She said she could but that was REALLY LONG AGO.
then she showed me the method.And her bridge is damn bloody high.
Shes so freaking flexible becos shes a gymnast.oh man.
Then aloysius was like oh shit , she can bend her body damn high.
lol.Well she went off around 9 plus.
Then we all just break until 11 plus.Then went home.
Amanda called me on the phone half way on my mrt becos i told her i was
bored.Wad a GOOD friend eh? waahahahahaha.
So was talking and talking until nearly my house there, then my phone batt
when gone.Then i went back to my house , talked to her on msn, then i
bathed first then she called.then we talked until quite late then i went to sleep
becos im so tired.wahahah,
hey silly manda , take care of ur blocked nose eh? lol.
Well guess thats about it.Later going to church for soccer match.
Versusing the same team again.wahahahaha.hope can win 12-0 again.lol
Then after that will be breaking at esplanade, most probably meeting gregg
then we go.Yeah tats all.

2004-10-14T22:42:00.000+08:00

Man, today had art exam.think i wont be doing so well.lol.
After skool went home , got changed and went to meet samuel at esplanade
to break.Sham and justin werent there.Ftc werent there when we went there.
So we went to eat dinner then came back.Saw 2 retribution members ,
justin and marcus.2 pretty dope bboys.
Then after awhile , bee , rino they all came.Then kelvin from ftc and the rest
started coming.Enemy grounds werent there.
Well today learned quite some new stuffs.
Thanks to kelvin from ftc man for guiding me.
I can finally shoulder to headstand.Just need more practice.
Then my threading air freezes could thread 2 times constantly.
My tombstone now can hold quite long.wahahha ,damn happy man.
After that we went home around 9 plus.
Damn tired.Anyways, i got amanda the syrup thingy for her health.
Hope it helps.ha.
anyways, thats bout it.
AMANDA U HAVENT SEND ME MY RESIDENT EVIL 2 YET!
LOL.

2004-10-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

Just came back.LOL. i didnt do my art.My sis did it for me.WAHAHAHA.
so tomorrow just have to draw only.lol.
Went out at 3 plus to meet wen xiang at thompson plaza bus stop.
Then we took a 162 bus to city hall mrt.
Met gregg then we went to break.Samuel , kok , justin and sham were there.
Ftc and enemy grounds were there too.
Today i think i improved.lol.damn happy man.
I did an air freeze thread from the back which is my normal routine,
then it went into tombstone , then from tombstone i got it into figure 4 and
thread back.Damn, it held long.wahahahha.
Today gregg had 8 rounds of halos.Man, i think top in singapore already.
Then we break until 7 plus , then wen xiang went off to meet his gurlfriend
for dinner.Me and gregg went to marina for dinner , had macs ,
after that went back to esplanade to break.
Saw norbin, wow , he improved damn alot.His transitions were damn dope.
His air freezes was damn bloody deep.Shit , thats wad i wanna learn.
lol.Well after breaking, we took the mrt to amk.
Went gregg's house ,he had to change then go back to camp.
After we went to meet aloysius at the arcade at amk central.
He was playing initial d.After that we took 265.
We were joking damn loudly and all those shit.
lol, then after that i dropped off at my house then went home.
Maybe manda is calling me later on.
Anyways, thats all for today.gtg.ciaoz.

2004-10-13T13:56:00.000+08:00

Damn man , tomorrow's art and maths paper 2. Better start preparing for my
art becos i havent start a single shit.argh! maths im confirm gonna fail.
Art art art !!! ARGH , i got a big fat ZERO for my ca 2 man.i didnt even hand up
my classwork.Gonna get screwed already.
Better go start on my art.Ciaoz.

2004-10-12T21:57:00.000+08:00

I've been waiting for you.Waiting for your call , waiting for your message.
I missed you.Everytime i wait , i hope for your voice , i hope for your laughter ,
i hope for the jokes we can share.I miss your voice so badly.
Hoping you could call me some time.
Whatever is left in my mind is all about you.I cant stop thinking about you.
Because , i'm so crazy about you.Missing you always have made my heart so
worried.
Worried for your safety , worried for you.
Your presence has brightened up my day always.
You're like a drug , being addicted to you.
My heart tells me , you're the only one.
The only one worth giving my heart to.
I just miss you so badly that no matter how much words can explain how
great is einstein , but no amount of words can explain how badly i miss you.

2004-10-12T01:01:00.000+08:00

I dont regret giving my love to you.I feel you're worth it.
But even if ur worth it, as i said, its still ur choice whether u wanna
accept my love and accept me.If u dont, what can i do ?
You dont have to feel stupid about wad happened.
Whatever happened has happened.Dont think about it and just move on.
Like me, i used to waste 3 months on her, but its a waste of time.
I rather find someone whom i find it worth it to waste my time on.
And thats you , amanda li.Yeah its up to you to trust me.
But whatever it is.You're worth it.

2004-10-10T19:32:00.000+08:00

Just bathe finish.Phew. After church today, went out with benedict to town.
Went to watch movie ,Before the movie we went to far east to buy some t shirts.Ben bought one, and after tat he decided to give me, becos the t shirt had some middle finger shit.And he said if hes mother catch him buying this kinda tshirt again , she will deduct his allowance, so he gave me the t shirt.Although its not nice, i still can use it for house t shirt.lol.So during the movie, tot we can kick some chairs today, but we sat at a different theatre room.lol.We watched captain sky dunno wad, some shit
movie.Benedict threw pop corns infront of some people sitting right infront
of us becos they laughed too loud.lol.
Then after the movie, ben had to go home, so i gave cedric a call ,
he was also in town, at borders with stephanie , matthew, nicholas.
They all were looking at bibles.Then after that we went coffee bean for some
drinks.Drank and talk about some movies.
Nicholas was talking about passion of the christ, he told me it was so bloody.
Real bloody that u cant even imagine hows it.
Sigh , Jesus died for our sins and people out there still dont know about tat.
I feel sorry for Jesus.Now i know Jesus suffered MORE then i expected after
wad nicholas told me.Sigh.
Anyways, after that matthew , nicholas and stephanie went home, they took
a bus.
Then me and cedric took an mrt from orchard.Was talking to him about
some personal stuffs.Yeah.So now i'm home doing nothing but missing her.

Certain things you said to me, hurted me.But never mind.I'm in love with you and will wait for your reply.Like i said , i hope one day,
i can hold ur hands , give u a kiss on ur lips , and tell u that i love u.
Well i aint sure about that day , but the choice is still yours.

2004-10-10T10:10:00.000+08:00

Have not been blogging for the past few days.Forgot to.Becos usually
im on the phone with manda so forget to blog.
Anyways, many things have been happening.
Had a crew battle with Inertia.
Wow, their tag team moves had improve eh? Not all improved, saw some
old routines.At least i admit that they won us in some points.
Unlike SOME people.yawns.
Alot of biting shits came out from the battle.Then my friend who watched
the battle was like , oh my gosh, this battle is freaking obvious that there are
alot of really serious conflicts.But, who gives a damn? I aint wanting to do
anything with inertia anymore after yesterday's battle.
Then after at esply, i rushed off to church becos i was gonna be late.
Met cedric on the way, then we met ton , chester and chun seng at yishun mrt.
Took a bus there.Went to play soccer.We took our jerseys and change.
Then played against Region D. We won 12-0.lol.
Their defence very messy la.Thats why we could scored most of the goals.
lol.
After the match,my whole freaking leg was damn aching.Ran too much.
Then couldnt walk properly.After that, Pastor Nicholas decided to give
Me , lye heng , wei hong and his brother a lift to yishun mrt.
Then i took 855 home.Damn exhausted.
So i went home and sleep straight.Slept until 9 plus pm.
Then messaged amanda, she was at her grandma's house or something.
Then she will call me at night to teach me some parts of my geog on the phone.
Becos some geog shit i dont even know.
Then talked to amanda until 1 plus am.After that she went to sleep.
I too went to sleep.
Shes prolly still sleeping now.Well , i hafta go get ready for church.
Going already soon.thats all.Cyaz.

2004-10-07T18:51:00.000+08:00

just came back from seven eleven near my house with wei quan.
Saw martin my neighbour.Bought some slurpee then went back.
Today's real boring.Study also didnt concentrate.End up wei quan only
studied.I was doing nothing and was bored to death.
Gregg couldnt come my house to break.Went to seven eleven only to
kill time.I wanna sleep early tonight.Then time will pass faster.
Dad gave me some money yesterday.
Gonna get amanda some syrup from my aunt's saloon.
Heard her immune system aint good.So this syrup thing can help.
Yeah.thats bout it.

2004-10-07T14:53:00.000+08:00

Having crew battle with Inertia on saturday. 11 .30 am.They call us cowards.
They are the real cowards themselves.
Im training hard for the one on one battle with nick.
Today i'll be breaking.2 of my crew mates coming my house to break.
Euthanasia is going to show Inertia wad we are.

Amanda is most probably watching movie in town with her friend.Ha
well enjoy yea.Will be missing you.lol.

Geog exams are on monday.Damn, i havent studied those freaking hills shit
thingy.Die man.
Weiquan's in my house now.Gonna study.Then break later in the evening.
Thats bout it.Peace.

2004-10-06T22:24:00.000+08:00

Everything's slowly fading.
Everything of me is gone.
Slowly fading away into the air.
Left unseen.
I cant see any of it left.
I'm empty.
So empty that no one's there to pick me up when i fall.
I feel so hopeless.
So useless.
Becoming a low self esteem person.
Having no hopes of myself at all.
I know its wrong
but i still feel it that way.
Pieces of me are dissappearing.
Slowly and slowly , they are gone.
Nothing i can do that i can fix back the puzzle of me.
Becos i am puzzled myself.
I thought they were the one who would have been my great friends.
I thought she would be the right gurl for me.
I thought he would be the best friend for me.
But everything was a wishful thinking of mine.
My fall is coming.
Coming real soon.
No one's there to pick me up when i fall.
No one.

2004-10-06T01:20:00.000+08:00

hahaha, just finished talking on the phone with amanda.shes damn funny.lol
hey amanda,if ur reading this, DONT LIE U FUCKING GUY.HAHAHA.
stupid kerpal.lol.
Well gonna sleep now.still have skool.damn tired already.
tats it.nites.

2004-10-05T21:44:00.000+08:00

Many say , Leaving Inertia was my biggest mistake ,becos they are my right
group of friends. But others say, prove urself to them that i aint lousy,
they asked me to train harder for the upcoming battle , euthanasia crew
and inertia crew.
I cant believe i m battling the crew that i love once.Meaning, this group of
people made an impact in my bboying life.But , i dont care about that anymore.
Revenge is all i want.How sweet is revenge?
I'm training very hard at home now.Even though i have no time to break
outside.But i promise , i promise that i will not let myself get burn badly even if i lose.
There will be this 1 on 1 battle.Clarence says i get to choose anyone from inertia
to battle for the 1 on 1.I have made up my mind.
I will choose to battle nick.Becos he asked me for the battle.
I will obliged him.Nick , if ur reading this.Get ready for the battle.
And for the 3 on 3 battle.
Inertia , whoever wins or lose.This settles all dispute between me and inertia.

After this battle.I will start a new bboying life.Start anew.
I will forget the past , forget about the past few events i have been with Inertia.
Start a new direction in my bboying life.

Not only i lost my good friends , i lost a good love.
But its all over.
For my love , its no use going after her.
She has given up.
And i'm tired of chasing and chasing when she doesnt bothers to stop and listen
to me.
Same here , I've given up.
From today onwards , a new change of direction will start in my life.

2004-10-04T19:03:00.000+08:00

Damn bored man.Just now after skool i went j8 with jeff and ritzuan.
Then ritzuan went home to change then come my house.Then me and jeff
jus proceeded to my house.We on the music and started breaking.hah
I got some new routines.Damn happy man.Jefferson also improved.Thats good.
Then after that ritzuan came.I took my digi cam and we took all the lame pictures outside my house.lol.Im training air chairs.ha.nearly got it.
Hope i will get it real soon.
Anyways, today was english exam.Damn bloody easy.Hah.
Well cannot get complacent.After fail.lol.
Well guess thats bout it.
I think i will be going clubbing with geraldine and her frens after exams.
Damn, clubbing means must spend money.Take mid night cab and all those
shit.But i seldom club, so must why just have fun after exams.hah.
Well guess thats for today.Cya guys.

2004-10-03T20:07:00.000+08:00

Just reached home not long ago.In the morning went to church with my
dad , my sis tagged along too.Today had a special guest speaker.
And his sermon is damn bloody funny.Seriously.lol.
After church went to have lunch at the nearby hawker centre,
auntie evelyn was there, she also came to church with her 2 sons today.
Then after church my dad brought me and my sis home.Then he had to
work somemore for today.
I called benedict and he said he was in town.Then he asked me to come
and find him.He was with alex.Alex wanted to go buy some surf slippers.
Went heeren to find them.Me and benedict wanted to watch a show,
alex didnt want it.lol.Hes so stressed about his O levels this year.
He wanna go jc, somemore his msn nick name also stated all his
l1 r5 subjects he wanna chose to go jc.lol.damn funny man.hahahahaha
So the 3 of us went to lido and bought the tickets, wanted to watch
resident evil 2 but was too late, 20 minutes passed.
So we bought white chicks.Alex didnt watch, he just accompanied us.
After that we just sat down and slack and bought some drinks.
Really damn tired.Didnt went to find chiro at far east.Sorry man.ha
So we slack for a little while then alex went off.Me and ben just sit down
and talk and talk until 5.15.During the movie, ben was a jackass,
lido chair can rock up and down, then there was this gurl who was
rocking the chair up and down, so he played a jackass and put his
knees behind the chair so she couldnt rocked the chair.damn bloody
funny.I kept laughing like a mad man.lol.
The movie is real damn funny.You guys should go catch it.hahahah.
Then after the movie we went home.
Still waiting for my dad to come back.He bought ba gua.woohoo,
gonna feast on it.lol.thats all for today.lol.
Tomorrow still have exams and im still going out.lol.
Cyas.

2004-10-02T22:18:00.000+08:00

Flashes of her face come upon my mind.
I miss her so badly that whatever i do , i just miss her.
Theres nothing that can distract me from thinking about her.
Shes so special to me , so unique , that i love her only.
Shes the one that i'm still loving after so long.
I have never stopped loving her since 18 december 2003.
We got into a relationship , we were happy for the past few months,
until i screwed it up during the last , regrettness is useless.
Trying and thinking of ways to make up for it is also useless.
Becos whatever i do , she doesnt bothers about me.
I walked pass her a couple of times , she didnt even bother to look at me.
I've hurt her so so much , and i know how she felt that very time i hurt her
I really want her to know that i'm missing her so badly.
Missing her so badly that i can hadly do anything becos im missing her.
I pray everyday , i pray that she can forgive me and start a new with me ,
but God doesnt seems to answer my prayers , but i will keep trying.
I also pray for her safety, im so worried about her.
The moment i heard about her operation, i got so tensed up.
Trying to find out what operation is it.
I prayed hard about it , and God told me its a just a minor operation.
But im still worried that something might happen to her.
No matter what happens to her , i promise ,
i promise i will be there for her , no empty promises for her ,
i will be there for her , be there even if she doesnt calls.

2004-10-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

Heys,jus came back not long ago from church.Bathe and all finished
already.ha.Today had my chinese exams, damn it , my chinese letter
writing, write wrong format, but thank God i still understand what they
wanted me to write about.Then chinese compo i left blank.Didnt even do,
dont even understand a single shit.haha.After that was paper 2, those
multiple choice and all and compre.Ha,compre i copied the whole damn
paragraph down.lol.zai bo? Hope get full marks for compre. LOL
After skool jefferson came my house , then watch some break videos,
then we went bishan j8, i bought a levi's jean.Cost 99 bucks but after 20
percent discount was around 70 plus.Phew thank God still got somemore
money.So we went orchard far east, jeff bought a brown beanie,his
gonna use it for breaking.Lol, brown suits him.hahaha.
Then i went fuck bush and bought a t shirt.Cost me 39 bucks.lol.
So today spent around 120 bucks man.hahaha.
After buying we went left foot to see shoes,damn there was this
nike high dunk damn nice, greyish black or something.I wanna get it,
it cost 199 bucks.Im gonna save up and get it man.Dont care.wahahahah.
After that we went scotts for dessert.Then sit down and talk cock then
went taka so slack.Taka also over there nothing to do, so we sat down
somewhere and sit down and talk cock.lol.
Then at 6.30 i had to go church then jeff went home.
Today church had bibleaire, its a quiz to see how well u know ur bible.
Lol, as usual, i didnt read.may God forgive me man.
Well gotta start saving again.Left 10 bucks becos of all the spending
today.Wanted to save up and buy pocket pc, but clothing are damn
tempting.muahahahaha.
Well thats about it for today.Cya guys.

2004-09-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

heys.Just came back just now from dinner with my dad and sis.
Today after skool had the editing video course.Today was the last lesson
and it ended early around 5 instead of 6.heh.becos tomorrow got exams.
Man tomorrow is chinese exams.Gonna fail with flying colours.
As expected.Then had a certificate for completing the course.lol
Then went home after that.
My sister's sick.So dad brought her to doctor and i tagged along.Then
ate dinner then went home lor.
My dad is gonna put me and my sister for graphic course.
Then next time go poly or something already started on 3d animation.
Damn happy man.My dad's gonna get me a new phone soon.Heh
Well tomorrow going to church.Before that think i'm breaking or
going out.heh.thats all for today.cya guys.

2004-09-29T22:07:00.000+08:00

Heys.came back not long ago from home cell.heh.today learnt alot.heh
Anyways,today after skool, ahmad , helmy , firdaus and hamli came my
house to study.Hah,then wei quan came along too.lol.We studied half
way then went to watch harold and kumar.Chao funny, we laughed like
crazy.hahahaha.Especially got one part in the toilet ,the shitting part.lol.
Then after that i went home cell.Nothing much today la.Quarrelled with
boon kiat today.Never imagine he's the kind of friend that will scold a
good friend like me and sathiya.I treated him so good in sec 1 and 2,
bought him recess everyday without fail becos he didnt have enough
money at that time.Then today, jus becos of a stupid badminton
racket,sathiya didnt want to lend him,he scolded both of us jinx and all
those kind of words saying we are unlucky and all.I am never gonna
be friend him again.He's biting the hand that feeds him.Aiya ,heck him
leave him to die anyway.Well guess thats bout it. Cya guys.

2004-09-28T21:54:00.000+08:00

Hey guys.Damn tired.nearly forgot to blog.hah.Anyways, today was
quite boring for me although its lantern fesitival.Dont feel like going
down to play with my neighbours.Downloaded harold and kumar.
Its chao funny lor.U guys should go download it.Really, u will laugh ur
head off.Anyways, Joined Gregg's crew.He called me in the day after i left
Inertia.So coincidence.Well i know gregg's crewmate becos i break with
them before last year.So why not joining? They wont be the kind that
insults their own crewmates becos i know them from last year.Some of
them are real dope.Gregg got his airtracks already.First try and he
caught it.Anyways, the crew name is Euthanasia.
I just joined the crew and theres lots of performance coming out.Man.
They also going to pay us.Gregg got all those lobangs for performance.
Well this crew is an underground one.We plan to come out in floorskills
and rock the floor! I believe with crew mates that respect each other
and teach each other, i believe i can get the routines i want by end of
this year.Yeah.Well guess thats all for today.Cya guys.

2004-09-27T23:40:00.000+08:00

I feel God wants me to pray for some people.and Some those people im
gonna pray for tonight, i will write their names down and wad i m gonna
pray for them.Here goes :

Kenneth : I wanna apologise first about wad happen yesterday and i felt
that the devil was controlling me to use all those.I'm sorry.
I also wanna pray for your life and ur O levels.Pray that u will pull through this difficult exam and go on to the next stage of ur life.
And also i will pray for ur life.

Nick : Well i also wanna apologise to you becos i scolded u on my blog.
I'm sorry.I feel that i should pray for you not only for ur O levels but ur life.Sometimes nick , u have a very low self esteem.U dun think high of urself, meaning u always look down on urself, saying u suck and all.
Reason is you dont.Try not to think so negatively of urself.I will pray for u and ur O level.Pray that u will also pull through this difficult situation in life.

Clarence : A faithful servant of christ.Sorry too for yesterday scolding u in blog.Just hope that u accept my apology.I know u guys said somethings behind my back , but nvm.I will forgive and forget.
I will pray for ur O levels.

Dominic : Another faithful servant of christ.Dome , u know somehow i feel that God wants me to speak to you.But i dont know wad to speak to you about becos i dont know ur problems.I can tell ur very troubled and all.I will pray for ur exams and wads troubling you.

Tosh : Yo tosh , even though if u are not a christian believer , i just hope u would allow me to pray for you , becos i believe in prayers and i feel that u need some prayers for ur upcoming exams.I will pray for your exams and life.

Dehui : Even though u and tosh are also not christian believers, i believe
clarence have been trying to talk to you about christ? Well dehui , as i said to tosh , i jus hope u would allow me to pray for you and for ur exams.Becos i also feel u need prayers =)

Dax : I wanna apologise too for yesterday for scolding you.Im sorry.Its
good that u believe theres a God that cares for us.I just hope one day u can follow me to church and follow christ =) I will pray for ur exams.

Bernice : Even though how much u hate me , i just really hope i can do something that can change wad u think about me.I just wanna apologise too and i really hope u can really forgive me.Like wad nick said to me, how much i regret also cant change anything.Ya i do regret very badly but it also doesnt change anything.I hope ur following in the footsteps of christ and attending church regularly.I hope everything's doing fine for you in skool and i will pray for ur exams if u do have exams coming.
I heard ur gonna have an operation?I'm worried about it , i just hope u can tell me about it =) I will pray for ur operation and pray that God will protect and cover u with his blood, and will ask God to send his angels to protect u from all evil spirits.And i will pray for ur family too =)

Aaron : I feel u needed prayers too becos i understand now wad ur going through.I hope u can forgive me for sending u that picture becos i know how much it hurts.Well God has something special for you and i believe is someone else.Yeah.I will pray that God will open doors for you.But rememeber not every open door is something good.Pray before u do something.

Mikki : I wanna pray for ur Exams that are nearing too.U are also another faithful servant of God.I will also pray for ur family as i understand things that are going on.I just hope things have changed for the better for ur family =) i will pray for u.

Stefanie : Remember u were crying to me saying ur Social Studies is gonna fail badly and all? Becos u wrote shit and nonsense.And i said who knows the shit and nonsense u wrote can turn into beautiful marks.
And u got ur marks today and u got 30/50.And u even said u think u topped the class.See? If u pray, God will help you in ur difficulties.
I will pray for ur O levels that are nearing too.=)

These are the people i feel God wants me to pray for them.Yup.I hope i didnt missed out anyone.

2004-09-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

Leaving Inertia was a better option for me.Inertia has hated me all these
while.Since i joined them.Since they hated me so much , why didnt kick
me earlier?I'm not a good bboy also , Inertia has potential without me.
I'm the lousiest and all.I left on my own decision.
Everyone's starting to hate me in inertia.Even mikki.
Well , how i wish i didnt met clarence and know wads bboying all about.
I tot bboying was all about passion and leisure.No not only that,
I get to make friends and friends do turn into enemies.
But for me , i made friends and joined their crew.
Thinking that this is the kinda of people i wanna mix with becos i feel
a sense of family being with them.Laughter and jokes.
But the insults and disses are intolerable.
If u think other crew mates of urs can take the insults, well i can,
but wad u guys did are over the limit.I dont hate u guys.
I know all of ur character, its normal for u guys to just start suans and
insults.U even think its in the name of humour.Well for u guys is.
But it wont work like wise for other people.
I'm not trying to tell u guys off or something but to advise u as a friend
that not every insult is funny to other people.Like dog.
I rather u guys scold vulgaraties then dog.Vulgaraties are not so bad as
dog.Becos dog is a real personal insult.And try to put ur shoes in others,
when u call them.Becos the word dog , is a very insulting word and we
are all human beings.I'm sure u guys dont like to be called dogs right?
So think about others.Dont always think about urself.Think about
others.We are all human beings and human beings have feelings.
Certain things said can hurt people when u least know it becos u think
its fun.
Kenneth , as u said , wad is keeping the crew together is the suans and
insults that make each other laugh.Well i can disagree with u about that
becos , i look at other crews, they dun diss and insult each other to get
a close friendship.They have other ways.So i advise u guys stop it with
the disses and insults.Like i said , i'm not telling u guys off but advising
as a friend.Dont be self centered.Think about it =)

2004-09-26T18:13:00.000+08:00

hey guys.just came back at 6 pm. from shopping groceries with my
family at Giant.Bought alot of things man.My dad's car not enough space then mus put in my mum's car.Thank God today got 2 cars.lol.
Today in the morning went to church.After church ,
suddenly trina and stephanie wanted to pray for me.I dont know why.
They said they felt God had spoke to them telling them i had my problems.Well yeah, i really have my problems.
Thanks yeah both of u guys.
Then after church went to have lunch with my dad.After lunch
went to my dad office then my mum and sis came too.
My dad thought me and my sis simple basic graphics designing so that
me and my sis can work for him during the november holidays.Heh.
After that go giant shop lor.Then came home.Damn tired.Feel like
sleeping.Feeling the monday blues.Damn.Exams starting on friday.
Well gotta study damn hard.Thats all for today. cya guys!

2004-09-26T03:41:00.000+08:00

heys.I just came back 20 minutes ago from a mid night movie with my
family.Heh.The show and story line is damn freaking good man.
Seriously.The plot and all was plan properly.I can say that this is the best
show i've seen.Man.Seriously speaking.Heh.
Well i came to blog becos i have something to share something about
part of the movie that relates to my life.My love life i can say.
Dont worry guys for those who havent seen the show yet , i wont say
anything about the show.I will only say something that relates to my life
and in the show its just a small part of it.Here goes ,

In the show , Jackie chan and his gurlfriend were a loving couple ,
and they seldom had any quarrels or anything.Until came a case , which
affected his personal life and he mostly neglected his time with his
gurlfriend.Well , its like , me and bern used to be a couple that always
spent time with each other and never neglected each other until i had
some personal problems of my own.I dont wanna say wad problems i had
becos its really personal and all.yeah.For jackie chan , that open cased
had caused him to neglect his gurlfriend and made his gurlfriend
think that he have stopped caring and loving her anymore.
When my problems came , i neglected bern feelings and i made her think
that i didnt care and love her anymore.
And for jackie chan , his enemies attacked his gurlfriend.Making her
landed up in hospital.From this point of time , She was taken away
from him.At this point of time , he regretted for not showing her the care
and concern she always wanted.
And she was even scarred on her right side of her face which actually
made her look abit ugly.She was very pretty and all.
As for me , at that point of time when bern left me , i regretted too
for not showing the care and concern she needed.
Then finally the case was solved , his gurlfriend was discharged from the
hospital.The case was solved becos jackie chan solved it.He also took
revenge for his gurlfriend.He fought so hard just to avenge her.
For me , i tried so hard to get her back , wrote her letters , told her bout
how i feel without her
And all the while jackie chan gurlfriend was thinking , jackie doesnt
doesnt loves her anymore becos of her scarred face and all.
And now , bern is thinking that i m having fun irritating her by sending
letters and messaging her.No , i'm not having fun , i'm sad always
she thinks about these.It hurts me.Sometimes she tells me off.
In my heart , i love her very very much that i really feel like hugging her
everytime i think about her.
For jackie chan , he loved his gurlfriend very much too but just that he
didnt expressed it before that.
I too didnt expressed it before that but i really really love her from the
bottom of my heart.
Then jackie chan went to her and ask her to marry him.She was
speechless and everywhere was all jackie chan's police friends , all were
saying : yes , marry him marry him.
Finally she did.She realised that his love for her was true and she
made the wrong mistake for not believing him that he still loves her
despite wad happened to her face.
As for me , everytime i expressed my feelings to her on the letter or blog ,
she just doesnt cares.I dont know when will she realise i really love her.
Why would i lie? why would it be bull shit? Why would i waste my time
on her if i didnt love her.I'm doing all these becos i really love her but
she doesnt understands.I wanna seek her forgiveness.
I wanna tell her how important she is to me.But i cant , she wants to
avoid me.Theres no way i can communicate with her.
I'm suffering badly each day.I'm also crying now while typing this.
I'm really suffering badly without.Will she understand?
I dont know.I really dont know.
It hurts me so badly when she doesnt cares about wad i do and all.
I dont know how to end this pain , stop loving her?
Its impossible.Really impossible.
I love her so badly and i've not love a gurl so much before even after
breaking up with her.
Its been 2 months and 17 days since we broke up.
I'm still holding on.I'm grabbing my hopes tightly , hoping it wont
be shattered.
I'm still waiting for her.Waiting for her forgiveness.Waiting for her love.
Will somebody please understand my pain?
I'm really suffering , its a torture to my heart.I'm shedding endless
tears.That i cant even control myself from expressing my feelings.
Sigh , i just hope God can give me wad is good.
If he have to make me forget her , so be it.
Becos loving her when she doesnt even cares is really a torture.
All i ask is u put urself in my shoes.Thats all i ask for.Feel the pain
and torture i've been going through for these 2 months and 17 days.
Just feel it and tell me how u feel.I'm still holding on.
Becos why? I still love her.

2004-09-25T19:53:00.000+08:00

heys.just came back not long ago from dinner with my dad and sis.
Heh went to eat pratas at the nearby food junction near peirce reservoir.
Today for soccer, we played against region C. They played smart and
well.But we won still.Haha.I scored a goal and daniel also scored one.
We won by 2-1. Jerry scored against us.First few minutes was quite bad ,
becos i banged against my opponent.I injured my left thigh.The area
is near to the knee there.Hurts alot , i couldnt walk for 5 mins, had to rest
then i went in the game again.After the game it started to hurt again.
Now cant even walk properly.sigh.I'm like limping all the way.
Really feel damn shagged.Feel like collapsing also.Thank God i'm now
at home.Heh.My dad bought tickets for tonight mid night show.
Jackie chan , new police story.Whole family will be going tonight.Heh
Watching at yishun golden village.Always watched movies there with my
family.Movie's at 12.40 am.Man, tomorrow still have church.Ha.
During dinner damn funny man , i asked my dad if me and my sister
can work for him during the november and december holidays.
I think most probably november only becos december i have the
church youth's camp.Gonna be damn exciting.ha, signed up already
yesterday.
So me and my sister's gonna work at vietnam with my dad.
Working as graphics designer.Tomorrow after church my dad will be
bringing me and my sis to his office to teach us somemore basics becos
we know some only.Then by the time until november me and my sis
can be good already.Heh, then my dad's gonna pay us at least 500
hundred.Wah , then have the money can start shopping for new clothes
again.My clothings are damn limited lor even last month i bought a few.
Wanna buy at least 3 levi's jeans.Heh.And buy somemore headlines
t shirt.
Well i'm damn tired now , wanna sleep for awhile until 12.15 am then
my dad will come to pick us and go for the movie.Will blog tomorrow!
Ciaoz!

2004-09-25T11:44:00.000+08:00

heys.I just woke up around like 15 minutes ago.Man , damn awake now.
Only fridays and saturdays i get to sleep late.Besides that must wake up
so damn fucking early.Then always sleep in skool.
Well still so early man , gonna meet cedric later at yishun at 2.30 pm
then we go have lunch.Then go church then play soccer.Heh.
Today playing with region c.Damn, they got lots of good players
like jerry and jie ren.My legs feeling itchy.Gonna kick some balls to the goals later.hahahahaha.
Well i'll blog more later when i come back.
Cya guys.

2004-09-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

heys.nearly forgot to blog today.ha.today kinda busy.
Well today me and jeff went for some dance lesson today.
Went to teach breaking.Lol.Made some new friends and all.Heh.
Then after me and jeff went to j8 to eat dessert.
Then i went to church he went home.
Tomorrow got soccer.Heh , church acitivity.Gonna be damn fun.Yay.
Well today after church just went home la.Nothing to do.Didnt go eat
supper with the church people.
Well gonna put a tag board soon here.Heh
Thats for today.Ciaoz.

2004-09-23T19:41:00.000+08:00

heys.today was quite a fun day.Well after skool.Me boon kiat and sathiya
went for a video editting course.damn nice.learn how to edit videos.
They will give us the program next week.Only 2 lessons.Heh, learnt
quite alot how to make those introductions at the starting of the video.
After that i went yio chu kang mrt to top up my card.Then came home
Damn tired.My dad may be bringing the family out for movie.
Well tats bout it for today.Will blog tomorow.Super tired and exams
are just 9 days away.Ciaoz.

2004-09-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

heys.jus came back from home cell.my mum fetched me then went to
her church frd house to collect something then came home.
Damn bloody tired.
Well today after skool i went to watch movie with boon kiat.
Watched dodge ball.fucking fucking funny.damn.
Me and boon kiat were laughing through the whole movie.
Wahahaha.Then behind me sat a gurl who was damn bloody chio and cute lo.Feel like taking her number.damn it.her voice and all so sweet.
Sigh.Wasted the chance.hahaha
Then clarence , nick , kenneth and dehui called me for session at the
dome near my old house there.So after i left immediately.
But that poor boon kiat left his wallet behind, he forgot to take it.
Then he went off to get it.Hope he get it back.Becos his IC and all is
inside.Man.poor thing.
During sessioning , pak and mikki came.Damn ,
pak improved alot.His air chairs damn dope and knuckle air chair also.
Then he can do the wake up diamond to turtle.damn strong man.
everyone improved.Dehui threads can hold longer.Man i suck lor.
Everyone getting so dope.I still suck like shit.everytime they diss me
saying i'm the lousiest in inertia, yes i agree i'm the lousiest.
I have the most ugliest moves.My toprock and footwork sucks , lose to tosh , lose to kenneth , lose to clarence , lose to dome.
My air stuffs lose to dehui , lose to kenneth , lose to clarence.
My ground moves totally totally sucks , lose to dehui and nick.
My transitions also suck too , lose to dome.
What use am i to the crew? Scolding vulgar languages and all during
sessions? Yeah i guess so.
I think i'm the only one in the crew they dislike lor.They keep dissing
and insulting me every sessions.Even pak joined them.
Fuck , i really suck so bad.

Well today prelims are over for the O level students.
Stefanie last paper today was literature.She was messaging me saying
shes so happy that she kept screaming to de stress becos all the while
she was damn stressed over streaming.heh.now she got no voice.
Stef , take care yeah? drink lots of water alrights? hope to hear ur voice
again.ha.
Then her legs also hurts becos she wore high heels the whole day.lol
Will pray for her too.yeah.

Well guess thats about it for today.Ciaoz.

2004-09-21T21:05:00.000+08:00

heys.just came back not long ago from sessioning at woodlands.
Well , today in skool nothing happened much.
After skool , mikki came to my house then i changed and all then we went
for session at woodlands with dax , clarence , kenneth and nick.
Today didnt break much.Didnt have any inspiration.Footwork and
Toprock is lagging and deproving.Sigh.
Well then mikki went off to her tuition at around 4 or 5 plus.
Then we went to have abit of snacks at the food court.
Then after we went to the woodlands community centre to break.Heh
At around 7 plus nick went home.Then we continued to break.
Left me clarence kenneth and dax.Then after we break we rested
and talked about martial art stuffs like kenneth's kendo and ninjatsu
and my judo.lol.
quite fun to talk to him about all these.heh
Then after that went home , kenneth took the bus.Me dax and clarence
took the train.Then took a bus home.Damn tired.
Tomorrow watching movie with some of my classmates.
Heh.

I keep thinking in my heart everyday.Should i give up on bern?
Should i or should i not? An answer seems to tell me to.
But i feel i shouldnt.I love her.Why would i wanna give up on her?
But i dont know why i keep thinking something's answering my question
and asking me to give up on her.Sigh
I really pray everyday for her.Like i said , i pray for her safety and ask
God for protection over her.She might not know i'm praying for her
but never mind , i just want her safety, thats all.
Her poly exams should be coming soon.Wish her all the best in her exams and will also pray for her.
Today nick was like reminding me about the times me and bern were
together.It just hurts so badly.I kept thinking about it.
I cant stop thinking about them.I just cant.
My heart bleeds everytime i think about them , it bleeds badly.
And sometimes i just cry becos i really miss her so badly and i guess
she doesnt even knows it.Even now i'm crying becos i'm missing her
so badly right now that i wanna tell her i love her still.
But given situations , it looks like that its really impossible to do that.
Sigh.

2004-09-20T18:55:00.000+08:00

hey guys.Today was a tiring day for me.dont know y.After skool, went
to meet kenny at far east. Kenny's bern god bro.
I bought one t shirt from fuck bush.Cost me 28 bucks.
Then after that we went to have lunch at the hawker centre upstairs
far east.
Then he came my house.Took an mrt then walked.Played billiard with
him.I didnt play properly.Damn tired.Even now my eyes wanna close
already.
Well i talked to kenny about bern.He said he didnt contact her for very
long.Then i told him wad happened and all for the past 2 months.
He asked me to find another gurl.He said bern is damn stubborn and all.
Well i aint listening to him.I want bern.I still love her no matter how
stubborn is she.I love her for who she is not wad she is.
Well then after played billard , came up to my house to changed.
He went to bathe.Then we went to the nearby market to have dessert.
Then he went home.Well feel like sleeping.Damn tired.
okay.thats about it.ciaos.

2004-09-19T15:40:00.000+08:00

shit man.Stupid blog had some problems.Then i restored everything.
Finally can blog again.yeah
For the past few days i've not been blogging.Lots of things happened.
I met a gurl called yingling.went out with her and shes quite funny la.
lol.From whitley sec.Near my skool there.Shes a gymnast.
wanna learn breaking.Then have to ask mikki to teach her.
lol.
On friday , went with my crew to break at esplanade.
Dominic , nick , tosh , mikki , jefferson and dehui.
Ftc and enemy grounds were there.
We break until around 7 plus pm then we went raffles city to eat at the
food junction.After that we went orchard mrt to break.
Retribution Crew was there.So we break with them.
Melvin , justin , don and marcus were the retribution members there.
All of their transitions were bloody dope.
After that we took the mrt train home.It was damn bloody funny.
We took lots of lame pictures and dominic FUCING KISSED ME.
DAMN IT! fucking gay! hahahahaha.Then i was talking on the phone
with stefanie.Then after dominic , nick and tosh went to talk to her
and said funny things.Making prank calls to her and all.Damn funny.
lol.
Then on saturday there was this play play so called competition at
esplanade organised by mahmud's group i think.
Alof of bboys took part in it.Nick and tosh battled enemy grounds.
Then me and kenneth battled hazrul from ftc and matthew the ground
mover.Matthew has become bloody dope.2 rounds of spinning air chairs.
Damn zai.Props.Hazrul powermoves are still going constant.Props to
these bboys.After that we all went raffles city to eat food court again
This time , clarence and dax was there.
Then we were eating and all.Then suddenly clarence cracked a racist
joke about the skin in the malay hong bao and the ba gua in the malay
hong bao.Bloody funny.I laugh like crazy.
For so long i never laughed like mad.HAHA.
Well then today i went to church with my dad.
Auntie evelyn and her son aaron came too.Then after church ate lunch
together then my dad fetched me home and he went to work.
Now damn bored slacking.

Yesterday was the 18th and i felt some love in my heart for bern.
I miss her so much and i still love her so badly.Does she knows that?
Aaron has gave up his love for eunice becos she doesnt cares for wad
he is doing to get her back.
But i m not going to give up.I shall continue loving bern.I hope shes doing
fine.Everyday i pray for her safety.I'm so worried about her.Although
she doesnt knows that.But i just hope shes reading this entry.
Its been 2 months and 10 days , i'm still loving her and missing her.
I really want to tell her how much i've been suffering without her.
But everytime i tell her that , she doesnt cares , she tells me off.
It hurts so much.I cant believe i'm still waiting for her after so long.
Which means i really love her very much.I've done all i could to
communicate with her but she always ignores me.Well i just have to leave
things alone , if i try to communicate with her again , i'm just scared
she will ignore me again.Sigh

2004-09-13T20:38:00.000+08:00

hey guys! yipee! finally today got internet! so happy.now my day wont be
so bored already.haha.
Well today was the starting of the skool holidays.Quite boring though.
Went to cut my hair after skool today.In the morning was like , teachers
were catching pupils with long hair.Mine was long , but thank God they
didnt catch me.If not my hair would be shaven off by the damn barber
they brought to skool.lol.
My hair's damn short.man.hahaha.
Well the O's and N's prelims have started.All the best who are taking
them.
Well stef , dun be discouraged about ur social studies paper yup?
Its only a warm up , the real final exam is the O's.
So work harder yeah?
Well tomorrow have to go for my cca already.Been skipping it for
some time.Mr Yeo's coming after me already.
Well guess thats about it.Ciaos.

2004-09-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

oh man.I MISS BLOGGING.I'm at clarence house now blogging.hah.
No internet at my new house.I just moved house on the saturday 4th of september.
Moved to seasons park.Damn nice place.Alot of chiobus always sun tanning.lol.
But i aint interested la.Well recently alot of things happened when i didnt blog.
hmmm, should i write down every shit that happened? well dun feel like.Damn lazy.
Anyways, holidays are gonna end soon.Damn fast.Well lets start out on wednesday.
Becos monday and tuesday i have been slacking my life out.lol.
Wednesday i went out with bernice chen , the one from church.We went to have lunch
at bugis.Ate mos burger.lol.dumb food.After that we walked around then she went off
becos she had something on.Then i went off too becos i got something on.Recently its
like , alot of people are taking my number.And they are all gurls.Wtf.I dont even
know how they get my number.Its crazy.For example theres this gurl called , kimberly,
said she know me thru my friend and started flooding my inbox.Damn retard.
Another gurl is candy who keeps pestering me the whole day.The last one is Xiao Yan.
Wierdos.
Dun give a damn bout them.
Then on thursday , again i went out with bernice chen , the one from church.
Went with her to lido to watch movie , the cinderella story.Quite nice.
After that we walked around then went home.heh

Well just now was friday.HAHA.becos now is 12.30 am.lol.
Went out in the morning with kenneth and clarence to beach road to shop for
shoes for ken.Then amanda , bern's childhood frd , came to join us.
Becos she was bored and asked me where i was.LOL.damn lame.lol.
Then ken bought a fake air force for 30 bucks.for breaking.
Lol.
Talked to amanda and had alot to talk to her about.personal things.
Well after that she went town to find her juniors.I brought ken and cla to ang mo kio
to cut hair.Ken got a new hairstyle.Damn nice and he keep saying its not.zZz.
After that , the whole inertia and mikki and boon kiat were waiting for me at yck mrt
becos they were coming to my house.LOL.i nearly forgot
So all went my house, boon kiat went to swim with daryl.Daryl was living there ma.
Then all the breakers watched my boty 2003 1st and 3rd placing.Everyone was like
OHHH.haha.damn dope the vid.lol.After that we went down to break at the lobby there.
Then after that decided to have lunch, then went to my old house there , a dome.
To break.
Man , everyone improved.I had my threading air freezes.Woohoo! Damn happy.
Love the feeling of improving.But i suck.I only improved on that point.
Aiya. damn lazy to blog.Tosh is at clarence house now also.Wanna go break.
When i get my internet, i go blog again!
See ya guys!!!

2004-09-02T19:45:00.000+08:00

yawns.damn sleepy.just woke up not long ago.Yawns.
Didnt go judo today.My stomach hurts badly.Dont know why.
After skool just went home and sleep for awhile.Man, tomorrow
theres excursion at esplanade.hahhaa.stupid maths trail.lol
Well today i got nth much to update.Going breaking tmr.heh
Cyah guys.

2004-09-01T18:28:00.000+08:00

heys.today went to meet samuel at far east.bought a few things only.
Bought 2 shirts , one from fuck bush another from heeren 77th street.
Where chiro is working at.He recommended that t shirt.heh
Bought new specs.heh.Then bought a boty 2003 , the 1st 2nd 3rd and 4th
placing.the battle.Gamber and Fireworks were battling for the 3rd
position.Expression and pockemon were battling for the 1st position.
The gambler and fireworks battle is damn sianed.Not much transitions.
Prefered expression and pockemon.Now i know why pockemon won.
Their moves are fucking dope.seriously.One powermove from pockemon
did a headspin drill and hes legs were lotus.Fucking dope i tell u man.
Then another powermover of theirs is damn bloody zai also , hes iron
board hollow back is crazy, can hold damn deep and long.
He can reverse air track also.Dopeness.
Well going for home cell soon.Heh.Gonna get ready yeah.
Well i am not gonna care for bern anymore.Since she doesnt wants
me to and she doesnt even appreciates it.Well okay.
Watching the boty 2003 again.Ciaoz

2004-08-31T19:25:00.000+08:00

heys , just came back not long ago from town with samuel , jin kai ,
and wei quan.Today after skool , me puvan ashley markus avinesh
puvan brother emilio and benjamin went st mikes to visit our teachers.
I didnt actually see my teacher.heh was playing soccer and all.
Saw jin kai.Talked to him alot about skool life.lol.
Then after jin kai and weiquan followed me to heeren to find samuel.
I bought a trucker cap which cost 24.90.After that we walked to orchard
mrt to break.Jin kai and wei quan went to walk around becos they dun
like to see people break becos its very boring for them.Heh.
While breaking , i saw bernice , she gave me that dao look , I didnt feel
good about it , becos she said that we were friends , but friends dun
give each other that dao look , which means she doesnt mean wad she
said.Sigh , i just hope she can be more sensitive to my feelings becos
every little thing she does affects me like , scolding me something
worst then a bacteria which is very hurting.And it hurts alot when hearing it
becos i love her.And i hope everything she says will make me happy.Sigh

Well tomorrow is holiday and i am going shopping with samuel and stefanie.
Gonna buy lots of stuffs , new specs , new jeans and new t shirts.
Well guess thats about it.Ciaoz.

2004-08-30T22:11:00.000+08:00

hey.Today was a quite a day for me.Damn it , i m sick.I keep sneezing
in skool without stopping.the feeling is damn terrible.Sigh.Wish i could
die sooner or later.Well after skool went home to change then go my
mum's office to help her with some stuffs.After that i went esplanade
to break with samuel.Gilbert and norbin from ftc were there too.Then
victor came also.I wasnt actually breaking la , had no mood.I dont really
like to break at esplanade.Well so me and samuel went off to marina
square to eat dinner.Ate macs.After we went city link to walk to city hall mrt then saw sharky.Then we went orchard mrt , we went
to check the breaking places and see if definations were there.But they
were not.
So me and samuel went far east to see things.Damn , alot of things i
wanna buy , i wanna buy a trucker cap from flesh imp , a thick frame
specs , new jeans , new t shirts and new shoes.Man , cant wait for my
dad to come home and give me money.heh.After that while walking
at the first floor at far east i saw yi hong , retribution crew leader i guess.
After that me and samuel went heeren to find chiro.He was working
there.Then chat with him for awhile then went off.He showed me alot
of nice t shirts.heh. Well feel like buying them.lol.Well after that ,
that stupid samuel pang seh me , basket , he take straight bus home
instead of following me to the mrt.lol.well then reach home and shit.
Haha , ate too much i guess.heh.Well tomorrow is teacher's day
celebration.After that , me ashley and puvan and some other sec 2s
from st mikes in bps going to st mikes to visit teacher.heh.Well guess
thats for today.
Ciaoz!

2004-08-29T18:15:00.000+08:00

well , i suddenly feel like praying for some people.I feel that God wants
me to pray for this people.Becos this people have something major
happening in their lives , like exams , competitions and all.Yeah.
Well i m gonna write beside their names wad i m gonna pray for them.
Here goes ,

Aaron - First of all i wanna thank God that has given me aaron to help me with all my difficulties and all when i was very down during my depression period.He was the one that told me not to give up the battle
and continue fighting.I appreciated that alot yea? well i m gonna pray for ur exams and ur life.I understand that there are things in ur life are happening not so good , but always remember that God loves u and will NEVER abandon you or leave u.Yeah?And for ur exams , will pray that u will do well and always remember that God is the answer to everything.
Pray to God if u have any problems.Yeah

Mikki - Well mikki , i also wanna thank you for some advices u've given me and all.Very useful.heh.Well understand that ur Ns are this year.
Will pray that u will pass with flying colours and can continue to sec 5
next year to take ur Os.Yeah.

Wilmer - Wilmer wilmer , wanna thank God that he has given me a friend like u to give me laughter and joy during periods of my depression.Thanks yeah man?Well ur Ns are this year too , Will pray for u and study hard , u will get to sec 5 next year and take ur Os.All the best.

Stefanie - Stef , well again i wanna thank God that he has given a friend like u to cheer me up when i'm down and also gave me great advices that really helped me.Thank you for that.Appreciated that alot.Your Os are this year.Prelims have just started.I will pray for your exams.Do not be discouraged about ur other tests and all if u have not done well.You
have burn mid night oil nearly every night , wake up early in the morning to study , and take every chance to study if u have the time.In fact , u have put in alot of effort to study hard for ur Os and prelims.I believe God will help those who helped themselves.Yeah.Finally some of ur tests have been getting As.Well thank God yea? all the best for ur prelims and Os.

Bern - Well bern , after what happened , i know ur angry with me and all.
I just want that friendship between me and you.Is that alright?
Well i heard ur competitions have started already.I just wish u all the best in ur games and all.I will pray for ur safety and protection that God will grant u.If u have no one to turn to if u have any troubles or whatsoever , i am always here aight? Will also pray for ur team to win.Yup.

Swee Ying - Swee ying ah! Aiyoo , Os are around the corner also.Remember to study hor? Dun slack too much already.hahaha.
Well although u r not a christian , and u may not believe in prayers and all , well i believe in them.So i will pray for u hor?haha.Well all the best.

Skye - hey skye , well thanks for some advices u have given me too.
Well heard u have ur head hollow back? well its great that u have improved.Well thank God u made it to sec 5.So now this year Os eh?
Well will pray for ur exams.yeah.

Well guess thats bout it.Will pray for my crew as well.yups..

2004-08-29T17:52:00.000+08:00

hey guys.just bathe finish.feel so fresh.heh.just came home from bugis.
This morning went church.Then after church me and chester and ton
went for saturation , giving out the phamplets for our church, becos the
church is giving free tuition.Then after that ton and some other people
went to play badminton , me and chester went to have lunch at macs
at khatib there near cedric house.
After that we went bugis to find benedict , nicholas , zhi wei they all.
We all played pool.After that i went home with benedict.Damn bored.
Teacher's days' coming and me jeff and mikki dun get to perform.
Screw those fucking indians.Well thats about it for today.
Ciaoz